Having been through high school I understand what it’s like to be in a dark mind-space. The power of the human mind is unbelievably forceful; it can bring victory or defeat. I have seen both cases when it comes to dealing with depression. Few people realize the affects thoughts have on life, letting whatever comes to mind stay there, instead of thinking about what they are thinking about. Thoughts are meant to be taken captive-us as individuals have the control in our thought life, that’s a post for another day.
Actress Sinead O’Connor has released a number of disturbing tweets regarding suicide. An obvious example: “Anyway…If any1 knows how I can kill myself…Without my kids finding out I did it deliberately pls tell me asa f–kin p.” A number of things raise alarm with this post, first, the fact that she has children and no longer wants to live for them; second, if she were to follow through, she would want it to be a lie. More often than not, those who voice their desire to die will not end there life, in this case it is most likely a cry for attention. But this is no excuse to overlook what could be a serious issue. What escalates the intrigue is when O’Connor followed these thoughts up by saying; she does believe suicide is a sin. “u may as well have murdered every one who loves u even remotely. Including ‘God’. And we all have people who adore us…Even if we think we don’t.” This proves the strength of the mind, even what we know, even if it is wrong, even if it’s right-our minds take us places. It is interesting that someone who was just at the proverbial end of their rope, has apparently climbed back up and rung the bell of truth, stating what any suicide hotline would; that you are loved, even if you believe you aren’t. Sinead also brings up the point that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and also address’ that it is a selfish act. Suicide is grenade that scatters shrapnel for miles; there is never just one victim. In Sinead’s case her kids would also suffer.
So what do we take from this story of a talented actress still fighting the same battle that reportedly led to a suicide attempt on her birthday ten years ago? “Watch your thoughts, they become words, watch your words, they become actions, watch your actions they become habits, watch your habits they become your character.” “As a man thinks in his heart so is he.” O’Connor was right on the money when she wrote: “BUT it’s ok to FEEL suicidal. That is most definitely neither a sin nor a sign necessarily, of madness. It’s quite normal to feel that way sometimes.” Life is full of hard times, but those rough patches carve us into who we are. Looking at the big picture can be overwhelming, take a breather, it only comes one little moment at a time.
If you think you or a loved one are in an emotional or suicidal crisis, visit the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline online, or call 800.273.TALK.